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The photo of Cindy. She looks indeed cute :)

optimus, you're pervert! .)

she´s like 9 years older now.. But maybe she likes younger guys. :)

Optimus: Why don't you just drop it? It's not like you're ever going to get laid anyway.

i have heard weird sex fetishes: but girlcoder.
argh. to find girl coder is as hard as find to
girl who drives truck :D

Ughh,.. I hope I proove you wrong ;P

Seriously, I don't think I will change my mind easilly. It was a long time ago (I think around February of 2002) after my first obsession with a girl which ended up weird, when my best friend (close nonscene) convinced me that I should better get laid with a common girl from my homeplace. I felt strange that night I was thinking about it, afraid of a feeling I had, something like a manipulation of my personallity, can't explain and doesn't matter in here. But somehow I forgot scenegirls and also decided to start a diet. I knew though that my real self/personality I dished, would arrive back! For some big period of time, I had no motivation for girls at all (and generally my life sucked so much. Was it around August-November perhaps?) and then a nice feeling came back to me again. I also tried to understand some more things about my passion with scenegirls, finding that it's not just so plain stupid as it seemed(loving girls because they code or do scene stuff, how crazy ;P) but something deeper perhaps. Though, things like the distance, rare species and myself still kills me. But I don't dare dishing my feelings, just because they don't look "normal"..

The best (perhaps) but impossible sollution for me is to finally get laid with a scenegirl(escape1), so that I cut the crap off, or else my passions will continue chasing me like ghosts(infinite loop). Another option is to encounter another dissapointment from a second scene love and make me forget the whole passion again. Then, I will either get fucked up with a common girl (escape2) or continue searching for another scenegirl to love, looping back to the same old story (a vicious circle) and most possibly never get laid at all (ending up a virgin at 40). Everything is possible and I am not sure if I will end up miserable or not..

Still most times, I don't regret for walking through this hard way. Sometimes I just see it as a weird game, beeing curious about how it will end..

Just a honest analysis of the problem, written (almost) for fun!


Optimus

P.S.Btw,. I had written another article about girls and the scene for the 3rd issue of a not so known C64 mag called Scene World. Many of my random thoughts about these and other interesting things are in it, for everyone who dare to read of course: http://users.auth.gr/~mkargas/grlsreac.htm

This thread has been offically optimused.

i like it!

Optimused! ;)

Very nice mag. And the Chica Bonita tune by El Loco and Sundance Kid is great.